back to far far away from home!!!!

after 4 month of summer holiday, i am now back in Brisbane to countinue my study
surisngly, i adapted quite fast...hmmmmm
i am quite busy changing my lifestyle for the pass 1 week,
from malaysia -> brisbane-> living alone in brother's house-> cecilia is back (my bro's housemate),at last someone accomoany me->meeting my bro's friend->finally,move to a new place, my new room to give me stay for entire whole year ;).........
qutie a number of change......
Unlike my room last time, my room are smaller this time......
wardobe super small too..but not much complain..
this is what student's life call.....................
i will post all m new room's photo for u guys...after i complete all packing my stuff..........
ok..
time to go..
happy chap goh meh..and valentine's day...
this is the 1st year, i never be with my family :)

is time to said goodbye to 2009 and harlo to 2010

time passes so fast..
as today is last day of 2009...
and is time to to recap what have I done in the year of 2009.......
same as previous years.............im still a student...
i remember i started 2009 in Port Dickson by playing fire cracker........with my best mates.......
a great start of 2009 does not mean that a great sweet year....................
unlike previous years......
i have done many things which i never except to be done by me..
beside rushing assignment and studying at the beginning of the year......
i went to support a local group contest name UPG where my friend lik jin had joined....
helping him, voting him and supporting him throughout the competition
as through this competition i understand that the hard work that he did in behind the sense no one know..
As, he dare to realise his dream........
i saw a proud papa,mama and didi..........
as a friend, im proud tooooooooooooo
As.........
this years
i left my beloved country to australia to realise my dream by being an international student in Queensland University of Technology...
a dream since i was a little girl.......and finally i had achieved..
the road of achieving it, is hard,
the life over there...is tough........
my mind keep telling me give up which i almost did it....
but there is an motivation behind me asking me to continue as i know the chance of studying oversea is difficult......
as i started to appreciate.............
in term of personality........
more independent.....
erm
start changing..... as
growing up......wth there is some bad attitude i needed to change..............................
oh yea........
im 21 this year............
no party..no friend besides me.............
but.......
being with family is always the best since my parent come over to brissy help me to celebrate my birthday...happy wth it..................................
lots more to recap.............
just try to keep it short.......
and leave some my memory inside my brain.........
as is the sweetest............
and
make a new start in 2010..........
by planing what you wan to do on 2010 :p

this is what frienship worth for by someone

the topic for last week had come to an end........
at first i though, i hoping for a happy ending...
but...............
when the true arrived......
im force to said goodbye.........
is sad to said our 6 years friendship had end...
but..
im happy to know that...........
u really judge all of us by the vaule of present.........
which is RM25...we
just worth RM25 for..the entire 6 years............
what a sad case.............
but im happy to know that earlier.........
cause the impact of knowing the true is not that hurt....
i just dun understand.............................
if u wan to judge us by the value of present......
then.....
can u just think back..
what have u do for us during our birthday...
i dun get anything each years from u.....for the pass 3 years..i cant remenber any..........that u gave me from heart...
as pig's 21st...just a cap u brought for her..what for........
as rinka's 21st..mac make up set same as urs......but..u did not brought it..u just said share.......
as..hever's 21st..u din brought anything too....
as khong also din, so as..kent kent, yong yi.........
before u said out ur feeling to ur friend or whoever, scold us,
just try to think...
what have u did for us, what have u gave us..not about birthday's party..nth...
just a normal 21st birthday
u did nothing for us........from heart.........also no...
if u dare to said yes............i have nothing to comment it.....
u cannot said....us....we din respect u..we din use our heart........
if u said so...
u r the same........
u hurt everyone of us.....................
my mun had told me sometimes before......
now, i already know....
already know.......
compare wth 6year's friendship, u have chosen present.................
by not caring how we feel when, being scold by ur friend...
as 1st, me n reina said.....we dunno the truth cant said anything..
after the truth had came out from ur mouth..we know that the person who scold us........is ur feeling and is also.....................................
i told myself to calm down.....
dun angry.......
because u not worth to be angry......
u r nth for me....from now
im happy to know..who r u now..................
rather than knowing nothing...

when is my turn???

i have been studying for the pass 15 years...........
and
this is everyone aim for for the pass 15 years...............
this is all i wanted for the pass 15 years..
that's what i aim for.....


i saw a lot of graduation's photo recently...
i cant wait till................................
my turn........
i feel proud of my friend...as finally they become one of the graduate...
congrats...................
i have been dreaming of being one of them(graduate) since i was young...
may be is the influence of my family..
i think the moment...when u waiting to announce your name to collect ur cert in the ceremony..
is a honour......
is an achievement of own.....
is a proud of ur family....
is not easy to get up there to bachelor........
as there is ppl give up half way........
the struggle...
as a student life......
this it the moment..
the moment of relief..
the moment of proud..
this is my goal for the next two years..to become a graduate...in the kangaroo land.....
to be one of the graduate in Queensland university of technology at bachelor in business,major in accounting.......................
i hope i will do it...
and
hope not to let me parent down...as
they have been educate me since i was young........
im sure i will do it.....
in order to make my parent, and my brother proud when the time had arrive...
1 and a half year to go from now...
will i do it.........................
June 2011,
is my turn to:


as a degree holder.................................
^o^wenjie lee,must study hard to achieve ur goal^o^

:'(

假如选择了梦想，就要放弃建立了永久的友情，因为当你回到来一切将会不同。。。
这就是妈妈在我要选择去国深造时说的一句话。。。
当时的我，头脑不会想。。。。
只觉得人活着因梦想而伟大。。。
就选择了跟了我10多年的梦想。。。。
朋友可以在寻找。。。
但 梦想失去了就不会来。。
这就是当下的的念头。。。
去了澳洲回来了，我才深深的了解妈妈的这句话。。。
回到来什么都不同了，再也没那种所谓的感觉。。。。。
开始不知他们想什么。。。
好像很多东西都在隐瞒。。。。
有时不打敢说话怕给别人看笑话。。。
那种感觉很不好受。。很难受。。。。
偶尔在想。。。
我干什么要回来。。。
干脆在澳洲度过暑假。。。
但 我的心又不是这样想。。。 很乱。。
那种对友谊的坚强，已经不再了。。
我想可能再也不能回来了。。。。 永远不能。。。
那种距离就像大家隔了一个像布里斯本河将大。。 很大。。。的河
我也不知道我自己要什么。。。
很乱。。。
我比较喜欢在澳洲那个独立又爱向哥哥和linda撒娇的雯洁加上在马来西亚那个爱笑，爱玩的雯洁。。。。
但为什么人终不能两全其美吗？？？
为什么回到来好想被人关在笼子的小鸟
在澳洲好像在鸟宝宝寻找着鸟妈妈的感觉。。。。
乱。。。。。。。
好像会布里斯本哦。。
好像赶快回去，，
但
我会不舍得这边的一切。。。
但
在这边好像觉得自己变成了一个外人了。。。
不能哭。。
这一切就是代价~~~
两边不到岸的感觉很痛苦，很痛苦。。

something is changing

I have been so emo for these few days..i dunno why???

My mind keep telling me negative things..…

seriously, I dunno why?having no idea with it

at first I thought I have been “put aero plane” by friend which really affected me but…after all is not….

I dunno what happen to me, where is the pervious lee wenjie???where is her???start to feel lose, really lose, have no idea…

Many things has been change since I came back from Australia, I cant describe the changes…

But I can sense it,

The environment, the beloved…all….

Seem so weird………

The feeling not like before, the passion is not there anymore when I meet everyone..

I feel like I am not one of them anymore…..

I feel that I not apart of them anymore…

Where is the changes???

The changes in on me or is on others???

Something is changing but I dunno how to solve it,

Everyone had gone mature???

Where is the fun, where is the everything???

I dunno who to talk with,

I dunno who to believe with,

Which wan is true,

which wan is false???

Have no idea………..

Anyone have any clue???

Anyone can help???

回忆

不知不觉回到马来西亚已有一个月的时间了，时间过得真快吖～～～

回想起当飞机落的时候，遥望着窗外的景色，那种开心，期待的感觉，让我兴奋不已．．．
尤其是当我把脚踏在大马的土地上，那种又最熟悉的陌生的感觉很奇怪诶　＠．＠．．．
乘着爸爸的车回到我成长的地方，把我脑海里所有的酸甜苦辣的回忆，再次重现　＾．＾

最近，在我脑海里常常出现＂回忆＂两个字，那种怀念的感觉，
对你而言，回忆是什么呢？？？

有些人说回忆是镜子，因为在镜子里能看见过去的一切甚至可以看清你自己!

有些人则说，,回忆是影子,因为比较喜欢活在回忆里,

也有些人说回忆是一部放映机。因为在每个人的心灵深处，过去很久的一切冲洗成拷贝，于某的特定日子，在触景动情处，便一一放映出来。而我们所看到的是经过大脑加工的艺术剪辑。

对我而言，回忆就像一部数码相机，因为把我人生的一幕幕拍下来，逗留在脑海里，不管是甜甜还是酸酸的，有空时把它拿去回味，把从前的回忆带回来，除非，记忆卡坏了．．．

最近在家无聊，把我藏在脑里的数码相机拿了出来，翻一翻我的相簿，
把我带到从前哪种单单纯纯的生活，哪种甜甜酸酸的感觉，好幸福噢　＜３．．．．
让我有点冲动，把时光机叫去来，回去回味那种永永远远回不到的生活．．．
好想好想回到过去噢　＾ｏ＾，给我回去一次好吗，好吗？？？
让回忆重来，选择重来能吗？？？
打从心里知道不可能，但为什么当初不会珍惜呢？？？
人是不是总是那么的犯贱吗？？？
失去了才会去珍惜呢？？？
美好的回忆总是在当下不会去珍惜，等到过去了才后悔，
唉，每当告诉自己不能把回忆活在现在．．
真的是一件不容易的事诶．．
尤其是在你无所事事的时候　：（
遗憾总在回忆里发生　＝．＝

所以我努力的告诉自己，
不管在天涯海角，我会把在脑里的回忆当成过去，从回忆里的经验，创造出一个比从前跟美好的回忆，活得比从前跟精彩，到老时再把这一切的回忆一幕幕的揭开，那时候的感觉应该会又甜密有幸福了　＾０＾

＂回忆让我们懂得感谢，让我们懂得珍惜，也让我们活出一道幸福的彩虹＂