there is something missing in my life......

from KL to land of koala and kangaroo（Brisbane)
is a long long way home,
cant drive, cant walk, the only way is to take plane to arrived home,
the only fastest, and the expensive way......
but is stilll a long long way form where i staying........
been to brissy for 9 weeks, still have 8 week to home,
having a brand new life, which i though to be more fun,more freedom
buttttt
is true to be more freedom..butttttt..
fun, not really,
wanted to go home badly, really bad,
is better that the freedom control by someome rather than 24 hours have to do things urself by no asking ppl
being here alone
is so looney,
so boring........
feel that im not wenjie anymore,
not talking for..dunno how to interact with others......
i dunno what can i decribe this feeling is weird and strange..........
being soooooooo "zi bi"
i feel that there is something missing......
i dunno what is that,
i really have no idea,
the thing i really cant find out,
the only things i know is
i miss my friend





i miss my life in malaysia..
i miss my family,



i miss bingo..........
i dunno what i miss in brisbaneeeeeee......
have no idea.......
any idea?????????

Shopping in Brisbane and Gold Coast

thursday went shopping with my friend and found out that guess is having 50% off on all item...
oni on thursday and friday
so we decided to get it......
as malaysian know, guess is super expensive
as usual, who i tell when hv discount..
my bro's gf...hehe.........................
i managet to found a jacket that i really likeeeeeeeeeeee.but the point is winter is over...
why i need it.......
ermmmmmmmmm......
the next day, my bro's gf text back me asking are im going to city tonight (friday night shopping), i tell her if u go, i go,thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
we went after she n my bro finish work and i finish my uni..
manage to try some t shit again, but they said is just too simple.....and
while waiting for my bro's gf trying dress(dat dun hv my size anymore, supper nice dress),
finally i take the jacket n try..and ask my bro...nice a not
he said nicem and i was like guess or adidas...
he was like...of course guesss, when i still considering i wan buy a not, he tell me that...
50% ,damn cheap wor, cant get it in malaysia.....
sooooo, my heart move and ok lo buyyyyyyyyy
the bag is quite cheap but..did not manage to get oneeeeee........
my guess collection



&
manage to get something on city beach
19 aussie dollar......
cheappppp
u cant get this brand in mas with this price


Today went to habour town for shopping with friend......
main..thing is fcuk t shirt and bagggggggg
did not find any nice bag at there
but manage findddddddddddd. some damn exepnsive t shirt in malaysia which selling here damn cheap, after convert to malaysia ringgit also damn cheap....................
1st things i get is fcuk t shirt, can get it in more than 1 or 2 hundred malaysia ringgit in malaysia
but i just get it 30 dollar which is RM90..........
my collection of fcuk




Next, Ralph Lauren
my cousin's favourite brand...............................
i saw it was on promotion..........
damnnnnnn cheap man..........
my cousin will call us buy it for him if it cheap, we been doing that for years..
this time my turn to call him, he said any colour...............were doooo..i wannnnnnnnnnnn no matter wat colour....................and remind to buy custom fits, s size..
i said ok.....
at that time i still wondering.....should i get one for myself..
if i dun get one, i will feel sorry to myself cause is tooooooo cheapppppppp
oh yea, just to remind the same polo t where my cousin use to buy it from malaysia is RM370 and now even cost more in Malaysia.........here jsut selling 60 aussie which is =RM180...is dat cheapppppppppp.........
so, i decided to call my mun, and she said yes........
so i get a body fit(if im not wrong) s size, and pink colour wan, wanted to get another wan next time......
im damn happy after, i get it........cant get this price in mas, andddddd
ralph lauren t, i always wantedddddddddd since many years ago,,
manage to get the orginal wan....yes...happy








im so happy for this two day, get so many thinggggg but still have bag......left..
tired d, wanna hv some rest after a long day........
and need to get back to do somework 2morrow
oh yea, happy birthday to ck which i not able to attend his birthday pinic at uq

river festival

the town is talking about the river festival for the entire week...
i heard that the firework is really nice there...really curious..
According to my housemate, bro and friends, there are some event you cannot miss when u are in brisbane such as ekka, and river fes.
since i had miss ekka, so this time i went to river festival with my housemate and friends...
at first i though, what the hell i am walking for so far from aucnheflower,(coordination driver) to south bank, around 30 min walk or more...
just for half and hour fireworks show..
and need to go there to wait for..hours too..
wat for??????
and there is tones of ppl
daam crowded man...
while waiting



am i so stupid
erm...
what can i said after an hours or more of waiting...
the firework start..
and its so amazing..
the entire brisbane city is full of firework..
it really prove me wrong, really wrong :@
although the place where i am standing is not that strategic...
but just awesome...
you really cant experience it in malaysia
and the firework is soooooo much different from malaysia....
half and hour non stop firework...
what can i said just too prefect for me..
although i miss the nicest wan..which is firework from bridge...
but is still damn nice...
cant stop taking video for my friends and family member to watch......
my hand was soooooooo tired and
my neck tooo...
here are some of the pic





honestly, i recomended u guys to come and watch...
oh yea...
the music just match with the firework
perfect

AND

after the show...
gonna walk back to where we park..
the oni things is..
not traffic jam
is

HUMAN JAM...

SO PACKED

no more exceptation while walking fell damn lazy...
..but...
playing, talking joke...
while walking back make time cure quite fast...hehe
then
dinnner at mc donald...
had my fillet o fish....
the portion here for medium is soo small..
but just enough to fill my stomach full,
quite healthy though...hehe
that;s all from now..
back to memorizing presentation speech..tataz....

BEFORE I FORGET
HERE IS THE FINALE OF FIREWORK...
THERE ARE MORE VIDEO ON MY FACEBOOK

^O^ENJOY ^O^

that's where am I studying

-


As i promise to post some photo about my uni, but i did not manage to take some photo...
erm..
some of it on my phone, so i manage to goggle some of the photo..hehe
Queensland university of technology(QUT) where I am studying now
i will be stuck here for 2 years in order to finish my bachelor...
quite long nor short...
time passes so fast...i have been here for almost 2 month...
many ppl start asking me how do i fell...
ans:im getting use to it..making friend around...
ok...
let me introduce...
i have been to QUT 4 years back...i think for a visit...
after 4 years...i back here...to study...
different experience, and environment....kinda...starange the feeling..
but..
the first day i arrived to the uni, my feeling like.im finally here to study...
finally this is uni life, my dream uni life..
a big campus although not as big though,
let me stop crapping and start introduce..
erm..
im studying in QUT garden point campus which located in city...
beside qut is a botinical garden where i can go there to refresh and breeze some fresh air whenever im stress and sad....
although the campus not that like uni, but is kinda uni to me compare to SEGi
it have a-z block...
nomarlly i will attend my lecturer on z block and my tutorial on block s and w
library is onn block v...
overall campus is quite nice,
great to study..
here the entrance of QUT


main entrance

is it nice???
erm qut theatre

still have a lot more
sport centre...swimming pool blahhhhhhhhhhh.
i still haven use it still dunno how was it..
parliamnet house...
erm...
blah.....
how do i get to QUT...
dat is a great question rite?
from my place i will take bus then to queenstress mall
from there walk 15min to my uni...
if i take train, it take me 20 min walk..
far huh?
but i use to aussie life d...hehe
is ok with me, not that far..
that's all from now
did not wan to write any crap anymore :p

1st chinese dishes cook in australia

i

let me take my time off from study and ASSIgnment..
seriously, uni here really keep you busy...
i already pass up 2 assignment and had to pass up 3 more assignment in comming month and 2 presentation on week 9 which 2nd week of sept, and having my2 mid term in the same day on this satursday...
seriously, crash my head.........
erm...
since my housemate not at home
and
of coruse my brother not free...
i decided to cook...
erm..
some chinese dishes which i haven cook an chinese dishes before...
i dunno what to do, calling help from mun and desmond for help over my dinner...
erm..
i decided to cook.. fried rice because the jangung rice i cook on thursday still exsits and....
2 chicken wing i brough at last weekend....
erm....
this is the 2nd time i fried rice..
erm...the taste is quite nice..may be a little rice with too many eggs and a...delicious gravy from the chicken...made the rice..taste nice...
haha

oh yea, the fried rice contain "baby bak choy",carrot, onion,jagung, and garlic..hehe
and here come chiceken wing, recipe from MR desmond liew...hehe...



erm.......
"xi yao" chicken wth an eggs, seriously nice..........
long time never eat this kind of food d..........
miss it........damn miss it.......
thx for recipe..taste well,
but i put..quite a lot of seaseme oil and..water d...
haha..still taste good
or long time i never taste this kind of food d
chao from now...hehe

my house in brisbane

Since wai sim wanna know how my house look at, so i decided took some photo immediately....
but...is at nite now..so some photo might be not clear...
erm,..
ok let take a look from the outsiede...
ok, before dat, let me decribe what type of my house...
is a town house...had 3 floor, basement is a garage...then follow by...living and dinning room..then
follow by all the room..
here is the look outside the garden, yet..is at nite so..will be not clear..dark..
oh yea, the room with the lgiht is my room

once u get in..is living room..a bit messy,erm...noramally all of us stay in the room..
so seldom..sit.. at there..beside lego, my housemate's dog

then....u will see the dinning room...
obvioursly.tpyical student house..
kind of mess...erm with a owen and micoftware..where......we always use.
ok..we dun hv a dinnig table..erm,
yet...typical student house.

hmm
what's next....
my room of couse..but a bit messy, just back form my bro's house not yet clear my dirty cloth yet..hehe
overview of my room

my bed


a bit blur...
ermmmmm...
my wardrobe

and scnery outside my balcony

seriously..
my room at the momment is bigger than my belove bed room...
but i stll like my belove bed room more..
haha..
dat's all from now

finally get to know what is homesick

i had been living in brisbane almost one month,
the 1st week, i am here was like so happy meeting new friend and gotta stay with my parent,
when come back from uni can see them in the house, or meet them in city..
but...whole thing had become diffrent when i move out from my brother's house...
is loonely, and after dinner time, everyone in the house was doing their own things in the room
and..everyone in the house had different time table, hardly can meet each other
except dinner time..
and all the things....need to do by myself....
whenever i wake up, will there to missing my parents, so loonely, tear will drop from my eyes automaically, haven been fell like this,
seem like hard to separate with them...
missing them so much
both of them had went back to malaysia last sunday, the feeling even worst,
can describe how worst is it,
dunno how to do assignment....
miss them so much.,cant study, cant concerate
life witout them is worst
cant stop to miss them..really miss.
cant stop thiking about them
really wanna go home
been crying for four day, dunno when u stop this feeling
i hate this feeling..
wanna go home
everyone keep telling me dun give up
is ok...
but seem like i really cant do it...
really miss them.........
may time goes by
i will feel better

there is a place call brisbane

brisbane, queenland is a part of australia,
I have been here for 3 time in the pass as tourist, with no stress, enjoy the sight seeing over here, nothing to be worry...
just keep my mind relax.....
this is the fourth time i visit brisbane, and this time visit, i no longer is a tourits here...
i apply for a student visa,so, this time i am a student over here..
finally, get my dream come true to study in oversea...... and had to stay two year over here...
ermmm...sound tough but is really tough....
it is completely diffirent when you are on holiday here and living here.............
erm...
have been living here for a week, erm still not much diffrent, my parent are still here with me, no home sick yet, dunno wat will happen when they leave...........
life here not as colourful as malaysia...
aussie sleep early, wake early, nomakmal stall here.........and blah...
food here still ok with me, but they dun really have spicy food here, japenese food here are nice...
erm........
the slang here are really diffrent form malaysia....
had to listen really carefully and had to get use to me..
some of them i even not understand, need to do a lot of job in that,
really need to touch up with my broken english and manlish with no lili,lala, meh meh...
i stil dun dare to talk much..over here..but no matter how..gonana start to talk...
the wheather here is cooling...winter..
at night is cold...
and..if u do nth at home, is gonna be freezing
ok...
there is some photo, i taken for this week
this is what i had, after i report to QUT, my 1st lunch in australia




queen street....
i gotta pass by there whenever i had class, a major area in brisbane



morning market in saturday morning, forget what is the name is

my breakfast


the starwberry here is so big


fish with chip with garden salad, my dinner tonight
will be update u guys about my uni in my next post

am i a shopaholic?

since i finish my exam, started my holiday, i have been doing many many many shopping....
keep shop, keep shop and keep shop.....from head to toe......
my head keep telling me buy this, buy that,
seem like still not enough....
still wanna buy more and more and more...
seem like, my job during my holiday is being a shopaholic, huh?
ok,
let me conclude what i have buy in this 1 month holiday and counting...
let's start from my head:
did not buy any hair care for my beautiful hair...but brought some wax in my saloon....
to gel up my new hairstyle...
seriously i hate my hair..being so short at some part.......
here is it:


what come next?
of course, is my face care....
erm......
a.k.a cosmetic and fragrance ...
the aunt call me to come and buy my kose product right after my exam...
because it gonna raise it price in july(this month) by 10-20%...
since some of my product are running so soon..so i went there to buy it....
and there was a promotion, erm
not on cosmetic, there never ever have discount :s
every RM100 you spent in parkson, you get RM10 cash voucher, sound worth it rite?
therefore, i get more than RM10 cash voucher and some free sample and and and 2 free bag for my mun....
(can imagine how much i spend rite?)


honestly, their product is really nice to use....some magazine even introduce it....
as 1st rank in hydrate....and the white mask also..nice...
and can said is worth causing so much cause u can use more than 6 month in some of the product up there....
after skin care, girl must do make up when there go out for lepak rite???
i running out of foundation, even though, there still is,
but,
just wanna buy and keep it, in case one day, run out of stock....plus...keep make up recently...
i will die..if run out of stock..and my face will...damn ugly plus..........all my friend will wear make up except me being naked face...yucky...
so, i decided to buy m.a.c to give it a try since zfc which currently using is a sub brand of m.a.c.
and everyone said m.a.c is good..
here is my mac foundation and losse power:

next, is fragrance and lip gross....
ok...im running out fragrance and lip gross....
some of u out there, must be....questioning how many thing you are running off?
seriously, i am running off..many things, since i have not been shopping after Chinese new year this year....
i am using ralph lauren, my brother brought me 2 year back...and it time to finish it rite?
so,
i had excuse to buy a new fragrance...choosing a fragrance..
erm, difficult..but my mind keep telling me anna sui!!!!
anna sui, i have been taking for n years i wanted their fragrance, smell so sweet...it so nice..
compare with the latest edition, i prefer dolly girl more, so i brought dolly girl,
and the package was so nice,
so i choose i more to buy since i accidental pour off some of my esthee lauder lip gross,
right another excuse, for me to buy something....so i choose a pink shimmer in anna sui,
yet, packaging in anna sui product, i just can use 1 word to descried-awesome

the box already so nice, when take it out is like this:


erm..will you feel like wanna buy, when u see this packaging?

every girl like it rite?
erm..i ended with this nice and cute sample, the girl give me a try of foundation..cute...
what next?
my body,
shirt, pants,
as mention above i did not do any shopping since...chinese new year..
it time to update........
erm....erm.....here are some of my collection:


mng, sale...which young lady dun get crazy when mng on sale and is up to 50%..
i brought 3 pieces in 2 different mng...
the crowd was like mad.......so mad...........
luckly i manage to get something....
then a singlet form padini(chinese call it xiao ke ai)

then...form kitchen...
shirt that i normally wun buy, but...just give it a try...

and...many more...from nichi...
time square, sungei wang...blah...........
next...
belt...brough 2 belt to match my shirt...
.
erm...the brown wan is cheap just RM5..
and...
now it my shoe.........
shoe..i brough 2 pair of shoe but is still counting for more...at mega sale...
haha..still counting....erm... may be 3 more pair..haha....
sport shoe(haven buy it in 2 year, good reason to buy).....slipper( haven buy it since october)..and more.to match...
now i only know, why girl like to buy shoe, i use to scold my mun why u wanna buy so many shoe in my teen and childhood, now i know why.
beside all these,
i need to buy laugauage for my further for my study,
i have been walking so many shopping mall
ended up, i have find this with dunnno wat p wat r lock..
which needed for international travel nowaday



o..k...
this is some of my new collection recently...
nope calcalator in your hand counting how much i spend..
i know is a boom..
but but...hehe..
just addidict to it...
and stil counting..
many more to buy.......
haha...
update u all next time..if i still countinue..my crazy shopping thingy...
chaoz

casting

holiday=sitting at home doing nothing, wait spider web to wrap your body.......
this is how i feel even until now...
since i am in my so call uni life and i am now over 18 years old for n years from now...
i have more freedom and do wat i wanted to do during holiday..............
after i join college life,
i am gaining different experiences during holiday like selling piano, being a big sister in nikelodeon event(dealing with spongebob's fans), doing some special stuff to someone special...and blah....
erm..
i can said..i am learning..new thingy...in my every holiday,
and
it help me to write down the record(moment) , what crazy thingy i have done..
So,
is the same for this year.....
but.......
i did not expect myself will do this crazy thing~~~
but once again,
i said to myself:
i am still young...
something you miss it at this age, you will never ever had chance to do it,
look out there, how many people out there can have this chance to do this,
how many people out there dare to do this.....
so,
i was like ok...
get it try....
so i can tell my next generation, what amazing passed that i have.....
erm...
the story begin like this
rinka ask me to accompany her to go casting for one of our local movie about bicycle and music
i think..
then i said..yes...
then i was like...instead of accompany, i ask her can i try?
she said sure u can, come play lar..
then i was like haha...
my mun is more more more.nervous than me...asking me to come back early in yam cha
with my two beloved god brother lik jin and boon kiam.......and is 11.30pm..way to early normally
she will call at 1am, she said i have to sleep early to prevent get a big panda,
the next day morning,
wake up, haha
of course go casting must make up nicely man....
if no make up sure lose d......
im not auditioning to be the main actress but still need to be responsible...
erm..is a manner rite??????
put on my normal make up...and with a purple colour eye shadow..hehe..sound horrible rite...
my make up:
.
after reach there,
need to fill in ur personal detail and what postion u looking to act..
of course,i not a "thick face" person,
defenitly not............ main actress.., i opt for the best friend of main actress, a crazy fans and kalefeh...hehe........
and education there i fill in bachelor (h) accounting and fianance (year 2)....
erm..
after passing up the form, touture have come
need to memorize the script immediately... WHAT!!!immdiately......
CAN I DO IT????????
and while memorizing saw the director(a famous actor in MAlaysia) and the boss came to be the judge..
GUESS WHAT
the casting is in station one, the the place of casting on the stage......
wow........
my heart wanna come out......pop pop pop pop..
waiting for my turn:

finally my turn,
1st time casting, i dunno wat to do...
the boss ask me introduce myself, i said my name is blah..and wat blah..
and guess wat. i said wrongy my habbit, i said till singing..wt*..
can imgaine how nervous am i now!
then ask why am i here, may be he saw my education background by filling so special with not many of accountant or future try to make a attempt in entertainment industry..
so i just ans, i in my holiday come to have some fun and gain some experince...
then
after that, tell me to act the.....
scipt i memorize
the 1st line....
im alreayd wrong.........
luckly... i correct all after that..
gosh..such a terrible....
few min in my life ever...and
oh yea..
he also ask me to act as an crazy fans when i saw my idol..
guess what i do, i have to scream and many other people who inside the cafe staring like WTH the girl is doing..
and there ask me to act again and again...really...
paise..
i cant release out all my crazy in the public..and also those weird faces looking at me
im not proffesional....hehe..i just wan to had fun.....
anyway casting is over,
and is quite fun, waited to try more if i got chance again........
know what to next.
overall,
I dun expect to get a role in this movie not even kalefeh..
just enjoy myself during young(not consider anymore)
at least i done something during my holiday except shopping and movie....and yam cha

messing around the kitchen

since, it was holiday, wanna be indenpendent....
so i decided to cook my brunch for entire holiday....
just a simple..no oil-healthy brunch....
last friday, i was so in a good mood, and dunno which wire of my brain kena shock...
i plan to prepare a dinner for my family in order to safe time for going to my granpa's house have dinner............
i just use watever inside my freezer...to cook a messy dinner......
well....im not a good cooker but i enjoy cooking...erm sound so weird rite....
really age been growing out...find dat..cooking..is so erm...fun..amazing...and...watever...
is like form a every single thing turn to a bunch of nice, tasty and delicious food...in our dinning table....exspeciall when they are people there to enjoy and finish your food,
the feeling is just super great..........
well...back to topic....
i was plan to cook spagathee and a fried vegetable..
but in the end i have to change my mind..fried vegetable is too compliccated so i change to a soup...
erm...
and..as usual my stuff is limited...
erm...
carot, bacon, ham.....
after a..more than half and hour war
it turn out to be fried sepagathi..like this:

..
while preparing the sepagathi,
in the mean time, im boiling the soup...
with a lot of vegetable and and a limited chicken breast..
i was so worry the soup had no taste...
so ended adding a lotof pepper in there:s
it taste sweet when 1st taste it..
but...
when u drank few more spoon..
you will definely on fire for those who.. cant take spicy..
here is the mess of my soup:


haha..it look so yuck...
and and..the kitchen..was in mess...
the floor was was so dirty with a lot of skin here skin there,
the table is so wet..and
floor is damn oily..
but i did not clean the mess up
my mun clean in while i was cooking
hahahahah..
she was nagging..
overall, my mun give 8 ourt of 10
but i give myself a 6 out of 10
the sepagathi taste a bit oily and the taste is a bit not enuf......
and i put lack of bacon..so...haha
you know the result.
the soup...is quite ok non oily...is match the sepagathi..becuase one is oily and one is non..
so can netural it...erm
except it quite spicy oni..when u drank too much..
haha

why i start blogging again

i have been sitting home, littering at shopping mall for nearly one month...
it kinda boring...
i though it will be really fun...but..it turn up..to be bad...
may be is fun for the 1st two week but..
time being long..it really yuck...
is seem like my brain is not working, being so so so lazy, nothing to adsorb in my brain..
fell like im so useless man......
kinda useless...
that's why I plan to......start blogging again...to prevent my brain turn nasty....:p
recently i read back my older post..it seem like im quite well in witting:p(except the grammar part)
erm...seriously i really cant rite it back..
some of the word i use........i really never except i can use such word before
or
it appear in my dictionary before...
who know?
may be i am old...or wat.........
i cant rite like before....as really before 2 year back..
erm..
why?
grow up..or......wat...dunno......
hmmmmmmmm........
okay..type again 2morrow with a better topic..
choaz

seem like long long time i never blog...haha..
just feel like hand itcy today..and release my feeling recently..
just finish my exam..has been holiday for 2 week, quite busy actually,
been cathcing up with my old mate in high school, chatting about wat we have done during high school wat have we done in the past....quite miss that kind of life actually, really really miss...
of course.....haha...
been spend nearly RM1400 this two week..haha..paise nia...
yup!!!im shopoholic...:p
Beside, shopping and cathcing up with old friend,
is also time to decide where should i go UK or AUSTRALIA,
UK- 1 year, AUSTRALIA-2 year, tough tough decsion OR in KL...
where or which should i choose...
is so tough...
UK-1 year to finish my degree,but i dunno how is UK lifestyle and i dunwan to go GREENWICH....and i dunno other UNI accept and give me full offer since greenwich had 4 subject per year other uni had......5-6 or even up to 8 subject a year....and how london look like. being one person and also girl..really tough for me.......
AUSTRALIA-2 year to finish my degree, but quite familiar the lifestyle there, and nice place to study...nice place i like there,however due to 4 subject in greenwich in one year, compare to 8 subject..1 year exemption is given
KL- JUST GET ME OUT OFF SEGI COLLEGE, DUNWAN THE SAME THING HAPPEN AGAIN AND AGAIN...........LATE ASSIGNMNET..NOTE GIVEN RIGHT BEFORE EXAM AND BLAH..........PLUS ALL MY FRIEND SAID SEGI IS GETTING WORST AND WORST and FOUNDATION I GET IS NOT REALLY GOOD(ACCORDING TO ONE OF THE CONSELOR WHEN I APPLY OVERSEA UNI)
is giving me a bighead...
i dunno the decision that i choose is right ...but...
alex tell me choose already cannot regrect.......
but seem like everyone dun like the decision I make...
forgive me being so so so stuborn.....
i wan to get back in study fast..
holiday is geeting bored...
and
i just wan to sit at home or go somewhere dat i can really really relax and quite...........
GET ME OUT OF THE CITY!!!!!!!
DUNWAN TO MEET PPL, I WAN SLIENT...PLS